So in the search of whats in either a theology or in someones own theology is a topic that interest me and I intend to play around so to speak on this very thought. It is no surprise to many, or at least it should not be, that if I had to pick a so called theology I would place myself firmly in the camp of Law Gospel theology. Does that make me a Law Gospel Theologian? Well maybe, although I have much to learn.
I do not have an easy understanding on theology. I mean if we profess Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and the Word of Scripture to be true then why do I even need to have a so called theology? Yet as I move on in this world of Churchiness and other Christians it is utterly amazing how so many do not share this Law Gospel understanding as me. I mean who made me so holy and righteous and full of knowledge and wisdom that I can say I am right and others are wrong? Absolutely no one. Not one Frikin anything. Yet the fact still remains that I am right and others are wrong, at least as I see it right? Am I wrong? I do not think so. Yet I struggle with this very notion that simple minded Graham Schuyler is so much smarter than so many churchy type of people whether they be in the congregation, priests, rectors, bishops, etc...How can this be?
Am I that depraved and aware of my own true nature that I am different from others? I mean do all these people especially the guys leading churches really like following a rule of life? Apparently so. Yet the more I see the mark that I do not measure up to, and find myself supposedly following a list of "what I should do to be a better Christian" the more I end up doing things out of duty, not love. So what is wrong with me? These are questions that all arise from my search of theology. Am I different? So different from everyone else, a-part from some other guys that I know, that I need to accept the fact that my theology has to just be true for me and not true for others.
I do not have an easy understanding on theology. I mean if we profess Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and the Word of Scripture to be true then why do I even need to have a so called theology? Yet as I move on in this world of Churchiness and other Christians it is utterly amazing how so many do not share this Law Gospel understanding as me. I mean who made me so holy and righteous and full of knowledge and wisdom that I can say I am right and others are wrong? Absolutely no one. Not one Frikin anything. Yet the fact still remains that I am right and others are wrong, at least as I see it right? Am I wrong? I do not think so. Yet I struggle with this very notion that simple minded Graham Schuyler is so much smarter than so many churchy type of people whether they be in the congregation, priests, rectors, bishops, etc...How can this be?
Am I that depraved and aware of my own true nature that I am different from others? I mean do all these people especially the guys leading churches really like following a rule of life? Apparently so. Yet the more I see the mark that I do not measure up to, and find myself supposedly following a list of "what I should do to be a better Christian" the more I end up doing things out of duty, not love. So what is wrong with me? These are questions that all arise from my search of theology. Am I different? So different from everyone else, a-part from some other guys that I know, that I need to accept the fact that my theology has to just be true for me and not true for others.
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